Last month (September) was National Suicide Prevention Month. You see, sometimes, things in life can go horribly wrong. People get upset, angry, depressed, and they start to get suicidal thoughts. Sometimes, the pain is just too much to take and while suicide may seem like the only viable option in difficult moments, trust me when I say this: it isn’t. It is a moment and it will pass.
You need to stay strong, and you need to push through and remember that life goes on. One thing I can’t argue with, however, is that while someone may be depressed and having serious suicidal thoughts, they might be able to cover it up really well and you might never know the pain they are experiencing.
During NSPM, a lot of people took to Instagram to show that regardless of how happy they may look on the outside, it’s just a figurative layer of foundation that covers up what they really feel like inside.
1. A girl can be gorgeous or grim
But she has suicidal thoughts both ways.
2. Depression is a messed up thing
3. Monique revealed the truth about herself
“You can’t tell can you? You can’t tell by the look in my eyes or the sound of my voice even. You’re thinking “You’re smiling though!” Yes. Yes, I am smiling. I smiled for you. I smiled so I don’t make you feel bad. I don’t want you to feel like I do. I also don’t want you to feel like there is something you can do to make me “feel better”. There isn’t anything anyone can do. I have to work through it on my own. The worst part is that this bout snuck up on me. I recognize the familiarity of it all though. Empty Lonely Heavy Tired So tired Everything is loud Everything is annoying I have no patience I want to be left alone I want to stay in bed I don’t want to work out I want to eat everything without cooking anything The best part is that I haven’t felt like this in a very long time AND that I recognize it for what it is. I’m the one who bakes and does crafts. You see that on the outside but you don’t see the darkness inside. For those that are also suffering….PLEASE SEEK HELP. Treatment is different for each person. Do what is best for you. I’m doing what works for me while I get back to Monique. So for now – I smile, and let people know I’m struggling.” she posted.
Source: Monique Holley-Peak
4. It’s an awful feeling having to bury a young child
“My daughter as well. The night before she ended up in the hospital they went to the daddy daughter dance and had an amazing time. Thankfully she’s still alive today and learning to beat her illness. She was 8 at the time”
Source: Rayna Gawel
5. Depression is a serious problem
If you’re suffering from it, you need to seek help, because you might be young and it’s not worth taking your own life because all of you have a lot to live for.
“This is my son, right before going to his computer to look up how to properly hang himself. Two days later he followed through.” Tasha Bernstein Collins posted.
Source: Tasha Bernstein Collins
7. So sad to see these people doing this sort of thing
“This is my boyfriend two weeks before hanging himself. Will never understand it…” Agnieszka Ostrowska posted.
Source: Agnieszka Ostrowska
8. A truly touching story
“This is depression in our home. I tried to hang myself in my attic when the board broke and I broke thru the ceiling alerting my family. I fight every day. My husband tries his best but can’t break through. I don’t understand it. I don’t know why I can’t get rid of it. I have a wonderful family. I feel selfish, lost, sick and angry at myself. My brain has always been a little scrambled and I’ve fought just to make it thru school, I can’t keep a job. I can’t stay on task long enough or I take too long. I leave before I get fired. It’s hard to feel worthless and I hate feeling like a burden to my family. I have so much pain inside. I’m in therapy I have meds. All I know is even though I feel like suicide would make life easier for my family, I also feel like if I could just get my head fixed and could be someone worthy, I really would like to stay around. I have been trying for so long I don’t know if it’s gonna happen for me. Today I am here. We will see how tomorrow goes tomorrow. I take it day for day and some times hour by hour. Sometimes I think if I can get through one more hour I’ll go to bed and I’ll sleep til tomorrow and see how it goes. Today has been ok. I’m trying to find something good today to give hope for tomorrow. Today I try.”
Source: Zoe Vanmeter
9. I won’t interrupt with my comments anymore
“My #faceofdepression and yes it is possible to be depressed with a child. Hearing, “You don’t have a reason to be depressed with her around” doesn’t do shit but makes me feel worse about myself being told, “All you need is exercise and a good diet” just makes me want to throat punch you even though you’re coming from a good place. Depression keeps you from doing things you want to do because it’s literally a chemical imbalance in your brain.”
Source: Brittany Schroeder
10. Depression has no face
11. You can be smiling, but that doesn’t mean you’re not suffering
“This is what depression looked like not long before we lost our beloved Luke. Depression is a SERIOUS illness. Don’t dismiss people who are hurting.” Lisa Althoff posted.
Source: Lisa Althoff
12. A serious bipolar disorder going on here
“Bipolar disorder here,(with a heavy emphasis on the depression side)…I get up, put on a full face of makeup, wear a fun dress, all while struggling with depression, anxiety and sometimes suicidal thoughts..” Stephanie Malanowski-Martin posted.
Source: Stephanie Malanowski- Martin
13. Panic attacks are just one of the many side effects
14. Someone can have a huge smile on their face
That doesn’t have to mean they’re the happiest person in the world. In fact, quite the opposite.
15. A young mom’s problems
“Currently at the doctor seeking help, most have no idea what I’m going through and that I cry in the shower or in the car on my way home from work or can’t sleep at night because of panic attacks.”
Source: Amy Kramer
16. Both are the same face
It’s just that most people only see one of them.
17. Makeup might be able to cover things up physically
But mentally, nothing can.
18. Breakdown after breakdown
19. Another young mom battling her demons
“Major Depression & PPD here. 3 weeks pp with #2 & going to the doctor is helping. Most times I feel like I’m drowning but last couple of days it’s been easier. Sometimes just talking about it can be cathartic. PLEASE seek help if you need it. It’s not failure. Sometimes you just need a little more time to get your shit together and that’s ok, because being a functional parent is hard fucking work.”