Amanda Martin is a 21-year-old mental health advocate from Mount, Vernon New York. She became unhappy with her body when she was just 7 years old. By the time she was 17, Amanda had a severe case of anorexia which left her so weak that she couldn’t even walk up the stairs. Also, the 21-year-old was counting every calorie she was eating and was on a liquid diet.
The critical condition developed after Amanda was unhappy with the way she looked. She stopped socializing, ignored her friends and at her lowest. She weighed just 110 pounds and was smaller than a size 00. Anorexia, is an eating disorder characterized by low weight and many people with anorexia see themselves as overweight. Even though they are in fact underweight.
Now she has beaten the anorexia demons that have left her hospitalized and it’s happier than ever. She reclaimed her body after struggling with anorexia and it’s a UK size 8 now.
Amanda before and after successfully beating anorexia.
She told her story to the Daily Mail:
“I suffered from the age of 17 up until the age of twenty-one, so roughly five years,”she explained. ‘It started because at that point in time I felt I had no control over things in my life and mix that feeling of not being in control with my horrible anxiety and that’s how it started.
‘I figured since I couldn’t control any aspect of my life at that point I could control what I eat or didn’t eat. My life changed forever the day I decided not to eat.”
“While suffering from anorexia at first I felt powerful. It was like I was on drugs and starving myself was my fix. Once I got used to the hunger pains and other side effects I felt in control and great. But as time went on that changed.
I started to feel isolated. I stopped going out with friends and stopped going to school because of how sick I was. As the years passed, I noticed how it started to affect my mother and brother and that caused me a lot of pain.” Amanda added.
Amanda now has over 10.3K followers on Instagram and has helped a lot of other people suffering from anorexia by sharing her journey.
She even stopped going to school.
The weight-restoration was the most difficult part of the recovery for her, or her but she is not giving up.
“Of course, at first when anyone tried to help me I would yell and say they had no idea what they were talking about so denial definitely came about. Then I didn’t feel in control anymore, my anorexia was. What made me decide to want to overcome my anorexia was simply the fact I had come so close to dying.
When I was 17 I was admitted to the hospital in critical condition and again at 19, I spent some time back in the hospital and four months at a treatment facility because I knew if I didn’t I was going to die.Everyone around me told me that, so my will to live was stronger than me feeding into my anorexia.”
Now after months of recovery, she is healthier than ever and weighs 140 pounds.
“Currently although months in recovery, I won’t sugar coat how I feel; it’s tough. The thoughts always seem to still linger, I just don’t act on them” I feel healthier and happier for sure. But every day is still a battle because it really never goes away you just learn how to cope with living with an eating disorder.”
“I would cry so much over eating food and my weight gain that I wanted to just quit and go home, but I knew if I did I would die” she added.
The 21-year-old is now full with confidence.
After giving recovery another try, she finally got on the right path
Her family, especially her twin brother, is also excited to see that she’s happy and healthy.
“My mom now actually hugs me, before she wouldn’t because all she felt were ribs and bones and it made her upset. My brother is so happy as well as my friends,’”she said.
The best piece of advice I would give to someone who was in the same situation as me is to definitely tell someone you are struggling. Don’t feel as though you aren’t “sick” enough or you think you can “control” it because you can’t.‘Also get into treatment as soon as possible because it will save your life.”
“My stomach had shrank so much that it took a little over six months for the refeeding process to not cause bloating and pain. I developed some other digestive issues from that as well. Seeing the numbers go up on the scale made me cry but I knew it had to get done.Overcoming anorexia has changed my life in a lot of ways. I am so blessed to be alive and get a second chance at life. I have helped countless people along the way with their eating disorders simply by sharing mine and that has felt amazing”
‘”Although I have done some damage from years of abusing my body so that part isn’t all that great, but being alive is. It made me see really how short life is and how I can overcome anything if I set my mind to it.” She explains.
We wish nothing but happiness to this girl.